Why?

I had a shock...

As I looked on TV, there he was... not him strictly... just an actor...

But it was just enough to awaken the phantom I'd thought that was exorcized...

Oh, well... I found out this wasn't true...

And the most incredible fact! I couldn't take my eyes off his face!

What the hell!

Almost one year has passed... though it seems to have elapsed an eternity.
Here inside I hoped vehemently to be stronger than what I were...

Other thing proved wrong.

My weakness still remains... 'cuz every single day I regret not havin' arrisked...
I guess this is the price that I have to pay.

Unfinishable regret

Devasting sorrow

So here I'm, wonderin' if it could had been different...

Wonderin' for a happy ending...

Wonderin' for an end...